How do you sleep with a broken heart?
She really doesn't know what to do.
Her heart is in a turmoil. She can't figure what she wants. One moment she's happy and carefree, and the next, she's hurting over things. She's trying to hard to be how she used to be. But sadly she can't. She's been cut and she's been bruised. She's been broken into tiny little pieces and she's still in the process of being repaired. She can't afford to be hurt and cut anymore. She just can't take in any shock and pain. At least for now.
Her mind is in a turmoil. She too can't figure out what she wants. One moment she's happy and carefree, and the next, she's thinking about scenarios and thinking about things that happened recently. She's trying to forget everything. But we all know, that's not possible. Not ever. She's thinking to herself and asking herself how did she let herself end up this way and comes to a conclusion that it's all her fault. All evidence points to her, there's no escaping. So many scenes play in her head, all breaking her heart. She says stop but it doesn't stop. It just keeps flowing in. Day and night it plays. It haunts her in her dreams till she's afraid to sleep.
She feels so tortured. Everynight she tries to cry herself to sleep. But everything has drained all her emotions and left her numb. Nothing comes out not even a single drop. All she can do is to sleep it off knowing that the next day, she has to wear a smile. 
Everynight she hopes that her friends would understand her plight. That they would show her the care she's showed them when they were in similar situations. But every morning, when she wakes up, everything remains the same.
She's been strong for too long and she needs to be alittle weak now. But when she thinks of how it might affect others around her, she can't bear to. So she continues to be strong, not for her but for the people around her. However deep inside, she's dying. Slowly but surely. 

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