What shall I do?

I really don't know what to do. I mean even if I do really like you, what can we possibly do? We can't date, we can't do anything and we probably can't even be friends anymore. My heart is screaming but you can't tell. It feels as if I can't do anything to make myself feel better because it's so torturous. 

My heart is screaming for me to say so much things. But I don't know how to phrase it and I'm sure if you could feel my heart just for a second, you would cry. I'd rather stay silent and suffer quietly than to implicate more people. 

I want somebody to care so much for me as much as I care for them. I don't mean a boyfriend but just a friend. Someone who will see the pain in my eyes and the pain in my heart. Somebody who will understand me and understand why I'm acting a certain way instead of judging me. 

My world is crumbling down and there's nothing I can do to save it. Even tears won't keep it up anymore.